Category: awareness

awareness · life

Pain!

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As I face the daily challenges of working hard, building myself, and most times being behind the deadlines, I realized the biggest challenge here is to actually is pain. If I can not embrace the pain, accept it lovingly, be with it, go through it, no challenge in life can be resolved! So I am trying to understand how to love the pain. The pain of waking up early, the pain of not feeling like focusing yet focusing thinking of the real goal, the pain of struggle, the pain of persistence, the pain of giving up the luxuries of watching TV, the pain of not eating just when I want to and what I want to. All these pain, I have to find a way to welcome them, walk with them, only that can lead to a life that I hope for myself. The more I run away from my pain the farther I am going from my goal and closer to real destruction of life.

The choice is clear, I have to be friend with all these pain, I have to embrace it to have a better life.

awareness · habit

Your Thoughts Make Your Belief

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Whatever thought goes through our mind the whole day, and then day after day, months after months, they create some beliefs. Its so easy for me to blurt out ‘I don’t think I can do it’, ‘I am too old to do it’ – all these are some belief inside me that has subconsciously directing me to the kind of life I have now.

Since I am trying to work on my thoughts, interrupt my pattern, it is sometime surprising how simple core beliefs that I have are so powerful and making simple work so hard for me. The biggest challenge has been now to interrupt the patter. Instead saying/thinking I am overwhelmed with everything, I should really see and thing, is it that bad? I felt that in the morning and was down, then I decided to interrupt my pattern (thanks to my life coach!), I decided to calm down, and not let any of my thoughts or belief system interrupt, and ended up having a fruitful day. Whole house was a big mess, cleaned it! Lots of study, did some. Now going to gym for few days, went there. Watching too much TV, only watched for 25 min in a controlled manner.

None of this would have been possible if I were to let myself run by the habitual autopilot thoughts and beliefs that drive me!

awareness · habit

Committing To A Habit!

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Paying for gyms for months and not every going has been a consistent habit for me 😛

To break the habit this time, I took a challenge to go to gym EVERY SINGLE DAY, even if its for 5 min. It has been hard and I couldn’t do it daily, but what I am proud of is in last 3 weeks I went there at least 4 days a week. Even one day I just went to take a bath 🙂 Oh well, in my defense I WENT!

The things is each time I have an excuse to not go, if one day it ends up controlling me I don’t let it decide my next day. I have been dancing between my excuses and my persistence. No one is fully winning yet, and I don’t plan to let the excuses win 😉

awareness · Goals

Interrupting Old Pattern/Thoughts

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Its quite natural to fall back to your old way of talking to yourself and go into autopilot mode. So the biggest challenge is be able to have the awareness and try to interrupt the thoughts. Just the step of being able to catch it and interrupt will help a lot! At first, it might be challenging but as the saying goes “When you want something bad enought you will find a way…”.

Changes don’t happen overnight, I have been on the journey of self awareness and understanding self for last 4/5 years and yet I am struggling everyday with so many things. I guess when I am in it, it doesn’t feel like much, but if I look back I can feel how much I have changed, how many things I have become comfortable with, how many things in life to be accepting with and most importantly how much I am trying and not giving up 🙂

Anyway, I felt like goig to sleep after kids went to sleep (what I usually do most days) but I interrupter and asked myself: “What would the person I want to become will do?”

This question is with me for couple days, every time I feel lost or not sure of my next step, I ask this question to myself and the answer represented to myself with a smile and I try my best to do that! I am getting there, I can feel it! I am going towards my dream, and my goal.