Goals

Its A Long Road…

It’s been a while, and I haven’t given up trying on my dreams. The journey seems so long, and some days are really bad with no hopes and no results. But still I try to get back the next day or day after. One important thing is what I eat affects so much! My eating habits aren’t very healthy, so after waking up when I have a big full breakfast w/ too much carb, I feel so exhausted to work! I recently started doing intermittent fasting. Not for too long, about 13 hours of no food, it may look like pretty normal, but for me it is a big deal, since i used to eat at mid night!! This fasting is helping a little, not a lot, but I am hoping slowly I will be able to increase the fasting hours and have better results. Right now the focus is on just doing it, even for less hours.

Its really hard working when your regular life has no discipline and your day to day activities are pretty mundane, but I guess that is the struggle that I have to work through, to not give up and keep trying. It will soon happen!!

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Pain!

As I face the daily challenges of working hard, building myself, and most times being behind the deadlines, I realized the biggest challenge here is to actually is pain. If I can not embrace the pain, accept it lovingly, be with it, go through it, no challenge in life can be resolved! So I am trying to understand how to love the pain. The pain of waking up early, the pain of not feeling like focusing yet focusing thinking of the real goal, the pain of struggle, the pain of persistence, the pain of giving up the luxuries of watching TV, the pain of not eating just when I want to and what I want to. All these pain, I have to find a way to welcome them, walk with them, only that can lead to a life that I hope for myself. The more I run away from my pain the farther I am going from my goal and closer to real destruction of life.

The choice is clear, I have to be friend with all these pain, I have to embrace it to have a better life.

Goals

New Pattern, New Beliefs

Its been a while I looked at myself. I have been somewhat overwhelmed by the two kids I have. They are (finally) growing fast 🙂 And now as I look into my life, I find myself lost and broke! Few belief systems has brought me to this situation of my life. So, I want to build new beliefs and pattern in my life to have a better life for myself!

The first step is, changing the belief: I AM LAZY! I am not lazy, I have been busy with so many things, kids and home related, what happened is I prioritize wrong things, I got exhausted because of the way I managed time, and the kind of things I was focused on (once again, mostly unimportant things) and therefore most days ended up in front of TV with a big bowl of rice and curry at 10PM!

The new belief is:

  • I AM HARD WORKING
  • I KNOW HOW TO PRIORITIZE THE IMPORTANT THINGS
  • I AM CAPABLE OF MANAGING TIME

I have started life coach with one of the Tony Robbin’s life coach, and I am working towards transitioning to my new belief system and change my life to get what I want for myself!

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